Target'd

Forgot to add that I heard "If it isn't love" by New Edition today. That was the first time the girls heard it--we were in the car, getting ready to go into Target. Man, that was my jam! Before you know it, I am gonna have a whole iTune playlist going on the sidebar of my blog!
Anyway, so after meeting a really nice woman & her 9 year old and 7 year old daughters, and finishing my shopping experience; which of course entailed my oldest daughter pushing the button...we always do that...she likes it when we go to the elevator and push the button and we also say it in Japanese: "Boton o oshite kudasai". When we first walked into the store, she targeted a pink headband with hearts on it, in the dollar section. She liked putting it around her tummy--like a belt. I forgot she was wearing it down there after I paid for my selected items. I had a ten dollar bill and did not want to break it, but I knew I needed to pay for it because 1) if I put it back, there would be a huge commotion and she was being very cooperative and 2) I did want to reward her for being cooperative with mommy--which goes a long way. So, I went back to another cashier I am cool with, to pay for it. I gave the cashier the ten first & told the cashier I had 8 cents too (it was $1.08) and the thing said it owed me $8.92--that was before it became $9.00 in change...The cashier gave me back 2 fives and a one dollar bill. Did the cashier do that to test me? I mean, the cashier saw me almost accidentally leaving the store realizing and confessing that I forgot it was there and planned to pay for it. Did the cashier want to really see if I was for real? That just seemed too strange. For someone who has been at Target that long, I would think the cashier knows how to manage the register. No offense, it just seemed bazaar. I know I stress over money sometimes, but giving me back more money--what was the point?--just did not really help. Trust me, once I make a decision, I am just as firm (and my conscious is loud anyway). Just to put it out there too, I did not buy the headband for my daughter because I did not want to hear her scream. I rewarded her for her good behavior in the store--not that I always reward her...Me being a parent really seems to reinforce my "good behavior" and the example I am setting. I know that she might be whatever she sees me being. I hope she won't be the opposite and I would love it if she became even more than me, in the sense of being an upright individual. There is nothing like hypocrisy in the sense that tonight I read her the Bible on Jesus being born. Am I just being a resounding gong? Does she really believe that Mommy loves Jesus? or is it coming across like I am trying to instill something that I am not fully living out (i.e., Jesus' lordship in my life)? So I am the target after all. My life should overflow--should be an outpouring of great things onto my girls. Like Mother like daughter. Got some work to do to be authentic--tried and true.